Friday 17 September 2010

Hello Band World! I need your help!

Hello Band World,

I really deperately need your help. I haven't been on blog land for a little while because for some reason that I couldnt describe until right now I just couldn't do it. I am going to make a list of all the things that are in my head right now. Because I cannot write a structured text at all.
1. I need to get back on track with weight loss. I didnt lose any weight for a while, I couldn't physically eat the right food. My band was too tight and I had to get an unfill. I am fine with that but after being sick almost everytime I have eaten something for over a month I am scared of eating so many kind of food. which are the good ones for me.

2. I am starting to exercise more regularly which will help I am sure once I get the diet back on track properly. I am going swimming with my husband which I really enjoy.

3. The reason why I had a hard time coming back here is that I see you all getting skinny and I am not compared to you. And I am so happy for you but it is very difficult because I know why I am not losing weight as much as I should and it means having to face those issues.
4. I have been diagnosed with PCOS, which is something I had been dreading as I can't imagine my life without children and now being told the only way for me to get pregnant is with fertility treatment and it is going to be veru difficult. I have been referred to a fertility clinic so waiting to get a date for my first appointment.
5. I need your help because I feel down. I need your help to get back on track. I need your help because you've always motivated me. I need your help because you know what I am going through.

6. I was not asking for your help before because I didn't want to face my problems. because you would have told me things i didnt want to hear (the truth) .

I am going to add a few pictures of the wedding as my motivation to a new start of healthiness. It was the best day of my life and my husband is the most supportive and loving person in the world, he is trying so hard to help me with everything but there is times like now when he doesn't have all the answers to help me and that's why I turn to you my banded friends because I am sure you will find the words to get me back on track.

Me and my dad in the limo.


Me and my dad at the church.

The wedding Party.

The girls (my siters, my best friend my niece and I)

James and I.



Our Cake with the little figurines I made.

I will make a slideshow with all the other pictures as there is so many of them.