NSV's and first fill tomorrow , and dessert talk to answer Drazil

Hello my friends,

I have spent a few hours on friday trying to do a vlog for you but without success the image and the words wont match...

So I will write all the things I was saying to you in different posts.

On friday I had my weddin dress trial. I ordered my dress before the operation in january. At the time I was a size 26 (28 US size) so i ordered it one size smaller. For some reason although I knew it was going to fit I was so nervous and worried I wouldnt get into it. And the verdict is it is 2 sizes too big!!!

Fortunately I have a good dressmaker who fill do a fitting just one month before the wedding and finish the alterations the week before so the dress fits me then.

I also received my jewellery and finished my invites. I am making favours now. I was showing you everything when I did the vlog but be patient I will make another one showing you many different things.

Another Nsv, I can fit in 3 pair of trousers that were too small for me. And I had to give up several clothes because they are too big. Which means there will be clothes for theones interested to grab soon ( Bonnie I know you are so keep watching I will post pictures soon)

I have my first fill tomorrow and I am scared because I have been so bad with food. I will have definetely put on weight this week. I can't get back on track since the wake and Easter it is very annoying. I will have to watch what I eat this week as I will be back to liquids for 3 days then mushies for 3 days before being back to normal.

I am scared the scales will play an evil trick on me and say I have put on weight to my bariatric nurse. I will have to be honnest with her and tell her I went to the restaurant, had raclette, had chocolate, had chips...

I haven't been exercising properly either because my right heel is very sore. I will show the nurse tomorrow and see what she says. I am scared I have a stress fracture or something like that. When I am sat it is ok but when I walk it hurts a lot.

I hope the nurse wll give me a good fillthat will give me some kind of restriction tomorrow because at the moment I eat too much. I feel like I am always hungry.

We will see tomorrow how the weigh in goes and the first fill too. I will tell you all about it. I am doing a late shift in work but dont get a lot to do in the last 2 hours so will probably update you.

Now talking about dessert, Drazil asked what happened to our libido with weight loss. Well to me I can notice a massive difference. I had reached the point where I was feeling so bad about myself doing anything sexual was scaring me, I felt I didnt deserve it for some reason. And my fiance is great about making me feel prettier but it didnt work anymore because I was hating myself so much.
I havent changed that much yet but the kilos I lost are giving me a bit more confidence in myself. And I think it my fiance notices it because I never changed a thing but he is looking to have dessert a lot more. And I am fine with it. I am enjoying it when before I was just thinking i was not worthy of it.

I hope I didnt "shock" you Drazil, I tried to use a poetic way to describe things.

Weigh in day: How is this even possible?

This will probably be the last post for today,

So I weighed in this morning and I lost 0.6 kg. How is this even possible?

Last week I was very good and I exercised 5days/week and I lost 0.1 kg. This week I didnt exercise, I ate chocolate, cake, a lot of bad things, never had a proper meal, just ate things during the day, but I lost more weight...

As long as it goes down I will not try to understand... I am pleased with that. Just another week before my fill. I am looking forward to it as I really need restriction.

Have a good Easter Monday everybody.

BYOC edition 3. Even late I like to please Mama pimp

1. If you could be a Superhero - what would you be called or what would your powers be?

I am not sure what I would be called, but my super powers would be to control time with my magic remote control. I would also be able to play the appropriate music in the background for any kind of situations and teletransport myself so i wouldnt have to pay for plane tickets anymore.

2. Name one physical thing you love about you and one mental thing you love about you.

I love my hair, I am proud to be ginger :) I love that I am a very good friend, it is very rare now I think.

3. If you stood in front of God (or whatever Supreme Being you may believe in) - what question would you ask him?

I would ask where he sent my loved ones who passed away.

4. Besides yourself - who was/is your biggest enabler in your weight loss journey?

no one else

5. What do you do for a living (another reader request question)?

I work in a customer care call centre fo Cleawire Belgium (internet company) I also am a beauty therapist and do treatments from my home.

6. Whose blog hit home for you this week or whose blog made you think the most this week?

I am sorry I will have to pass this one for this week havent had time to read any blogs yet.

More Awards

Thank you girl Bandit for nominating me!


Here are the rules:


1. When you have received this award you must thank the person that awarded you the award in a new post.


2. Name 10 things that make you happy.

3. Pass this award on to 10 bloggers & inform them.



10 things that make me Happy


1.My fiance. I love him so much and he makes me feel so happy and beautiful
2.My family
3.My friends
4.All of you in Blogland supporting me in my journey
5.Seeing the scales go down
6.Making people happy
7.Traveling
8.Finishing a project
9.going to see a musical at the theatre
10.being nice and warm on the couch in a blanket with the fire on when it is freezing outside, a cup of hot chocolate is usually welcome in this situation.

I have decided to nominate all the people that supported me in the last few days and made this hard times a bit better. I know there is more than 10 but I don't like to follow rules...

Roo
Bianca J.
Kim
The Dash
Bonnie
Nikki
Sandy Lee
Alison
LDswims
Tessierose
Jacquie
Joey
Girl Bandit
Bandit Blossum
Debi
Janelle
Amy W.
Amandakista
Southern Belle

I love you all girls.

Stiletto Award

WHAT IS A STILETTO AWARD???

There are thousands of blogs, and there are hundreds of awards. The Stiletto Award is a little different than most!

First, to understand, let us understand the Stiletto… some words that describe it…
Classy – Strong -Exotic – Demure – Extreme – Ultra – Sexy - Bold – Funky

“Walking in extremely high heels is not something that the average woman (or man) will need to do in their everyday life.
However, there are times when this skill may be required.”

AND… what is a “blogger”? According to Dictionary.com the official definition is:
Blogger: One who writes entries in, adds material to, or maintains a weblog However, I think there is a LOT more to it than that. My definition of a blogger…
Blogger: A strong, confident woman who has a full life. Because of the nature of her existence, she seeks connection and companionship with others who understand and wish to support her. She gains strength and courage from the experiences of these woman and shares her story in return. Through the “blog world” she develops relationships with women she would otherwise never meet and builds a community of cherished friends with whom she shares her life, experiences, challenges, failures, triumphs, goals, family and so much more! She IS Classy, Strong, Exotic, Demure, Extreme, Ultra, Sexy, Bold and Funky!

“To walk gracefully in high heels, take short steps, as opposed to long strides, and come down in a heel-toe, heel-toe motion.”

Hence, the Stiletto Award…For Excellence in Blogging!

I want to salute the women who balance life, family & relationships with style & class! Those women who share their experiences with us…who encourage us, inspire us, teach us, make us laugh and basically keep us going! You know who they are! While you read this blog, your family is looking at you wondering what the heck you are laughing about so hard…or why the tissue is necessary for internet browsing. It’s the one that the kids are excited about cuz a new post means a new craft project or family outing. The one that inspires you to be a better mom, friend, person in general. The one that reminds you that we are all “in this life together” and you’re not the only one going through the hard stuff. The one that you secretly wish your blog was like…

“It is good to get into the habit of doing the warm-up and cool-down exercises every time you wear them.”

If you’ve received this award, someone out there thinks you deserve it! Be proud! Display the badge with honor! You earned it…after all it means that you brought something special to at least one other person, and really, isn’t that what life’s all about????

“Under no circumstances drive a car with your heels on. Not only do you have less control over the car, but it will damage your shoes – and they aren’t cheap at this height. Keep spare shoes in the car for driving, or have someone drive you.”

THE RULES!

This blog is meant to be shared, to be given out, to be bestowed upon any and ALL women who exemplify what the stiletto represents. If you’ve received this award, here’s what you do:

1. Display your Stiletto Badge of Honor on your sidebar! Wear it with pride… (grab the badge here)

“Heels this high are not meant for clubbing or walking long distances in. They are mainly used for getting from the living room to the bedroom, from the car to the restaurant, or for a short stroll along the catwalk.”

2. BRAG ABOUT IT! -write a post about your award. Include the link to this page so everyone will understand what it’s all about! http://bit.ly/thestilettoaward

3. SAY THANKS! - include a link to the friend who nominated you for the award.

Thank you so much Roo, I am happy I can be an inspiration to you. When I started this blog I thought if I can inspire one person then It will be all worth it :)

4. SHARE THE LOVE! -nominate 5-10 blogs that you feel deserve the award. Include links to them in your post -and- leave them a comment to let them know they are nominated.

1. Drazil

2. Amy W.

3. Joey

4. Jen

5. LapbandGal

6. Alison

7. Justine

8. GirlBandit

9. Janelle

10. Stephanie


5. DO WHAT YOU DO! -keep at it. Keep inspiring and encouraging and sharing your life! We love it and we thank you!!!

Back to normal life

Hello everybody,

First of all thank you for your support. You are amazing! The last 3 days were very tiring, emotionally, physically, and foodwise.

I have been eating badly because I didn't have the time to cook for myself so was eating what was there for the wake. I was not sure how I would react to having a coffin in my living room as I have never been confronted to that situation but I thought the whole process was a very good thing.

Having so many people in my house for 3 days was very tiring but I am glad I could be there for J and his family. And like his mummy told me I am part of the family now too.

It will take me a while to catch up on all your blogs but I am in work and it is very quiet so might be able to do some of that today.

Thank you Nikki for posting the clothes :) I cant wait to receive them !
Thank you GirlBandit for the Award I can't see yet what it is but will soon :)

Quick and sad update.

Hello Everybody,

Thank you for all your previous messages I really appreciated. Sadly she passed away yesterday so I will be away from Bandland until the wake is over on friday.

Thank you so much again for your support.